In an earlier, somewhat depressing, post,
I acknowledged that my ex- and I were never going to speak again.
For whatever reason, he called & we both wavered.
We don't really know where we're headed with this.
We don't really know how we're intending to make this work.
But one thing we're sure of, we make each other happy.
He's been spending a lot of time with me recently.
Each day feels like our last.
Admittedly, it's a good way to spend time.
Because we value each other's company more.
Fights become more scarce.
Surprisingly, we've only fought once
since we started talking again.
Either that, or my memory fails me.
He's been encouraging me to work hard for my finals.
But my mind just isn't in it.
He'd normally get upset if I didn't spend enough time with him.
Perhaps, I'm doing good so he knows I do care.
Not only is he not upset,
he's been trying all the small things...
to cheer me up, to encourage me.
... It's really the smallest of things.
We went out to the usual Macs for brekkie and
he would stand in a queue for an extra hashbrown...
... just because I wouldn't.
He'd go with me to the supermarket to run errands with me...
... just so I wouldn't have to do it alone.
He'd push the trolley for me...
... just so he can hold my hand.
He'd come over to cook me lunch...
... just to see me smile.
He'd carry the groceries...
... just so I won't have to.
He'd sit on the floor with me to play on his laptop...
... just so I won't sit on the floor studying alone.
He'd stay up late with me...
... just so I'd have someone to call if I felt stressed studying.
He peeled me an orange...
... just so he could feed me while I studied.
Today he came over to hug me while I studied...
... just so I could;
He's worried I'll do badly if I still don't start studying.
It's the smallest things that make your world turn upside down.
It's these same things that make you think...
when he whispers & holds your hand,
"Don't go."
Because he wants you in his life.
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