Long. Longing.♥

It's been awhile since I've last posted because I've been pretty busy.

Hiding behind my long days as an excuse not to cope, not to think. The days aren't helping. It's not packed enough... Because there still is lunch... And even with skipping meals, eating breakfast bars and packet cookies... There is still so much time alone, so much time to think and wonder.

In any case, I'll be relocating to a safer place where my thoughts could stay hidden better. I haven't quite decided where yet... So many options, so many choices... None of which I'd really like.

But I suppose... What you like... Doesn't really matter anymore.

Someone once asked me... If you knew you could do something to make someone feel better, even if it was at your expense, would you do it?

My answer: if he mattered enough, yes.
In this case, he means that much to me. For me to give everything else up just to make things that much easier for him. Because that person is him.

But tonight, cracks are showing; I am only human. Repressed emotions. With no more than a wall to confide in.

Thinning.Away.
Wasting & fading.

#lovingcouldntpossiblyhurtsomuchcouldit

This song couldn't more clearly articulate what I really need right now.)':
-- Kenny Chesney - Come Over (Lyrics)