Because he just has this effect on me.

I've been having this on-off relationship with the love of my life. We recently decided to call it quits again for some other reason and part of the deal was that we weren't to talk to each other. We shouldn't talk because we care so much for each other, we influence each other so much: be it in work, friends or home. We sometimes make decisions to accommodate each other and some people may find it silly, but there again, which couple who really cares for the other party doesn't??

To be honest, I was again pining for him because we used to be such a big part of each other's lives. A very special part of whatever we had that I missed was the fact that I got to hear him say "I really really like you" every single night, and we've been together for almost 2 years. Even if we fought., he'd still find it in him to tell me that no matter how angry he was. It was his little way of telling me he loved me come what may. It was his little assurance to me. It was his special way of making our "I love you" moments different from the rest. It was his way of reminding me of his commitment to me.

Being the silly nut that I was, I chanced upon a very meaningful picture which I decided to used this photo as my new facebook cover photo.

The message I badly wanted to send to him.

I was hoping that being the silly nut that he was, that he'd stalk my facebook and know that I missed him terribly. (He usually stalks me quite regularly. ) After posting it, I kept my fingers crossed and hoped that he'd call me at best, or put up some silly reply as a status at least. But an hour passed and still no status; I was up till 3am that night hoping.

What my wall looks like with the message on it.

Tired out, I went to bed and was out all day. I got home pretty late in the night and turned on my computer to check my emails. Much to my amazement, something caught my attention. He had changed his profile picture. Interestingly, it wasn't him on it anymore. It was a single alphabet. A letter "I". So out of curiousity, I clicked on it to see if part of the picture might have been cropped out... (users of the new facebook timeline interface would understand the frustration of putting up new profile pictures to fit center in the small square without being cropped.)

And this was his reply to me on his facebook wall.

What his facebook wall said in response to mine.

Needless to say, I got my reply. He wasn't going to break his resolve to stay strong and stay apart. But he wasn't about to leave my ponderous mind unanswered either. 

My week long attempt to try and be good ended with me finally posting this 

"... and once again you set my heart a flutter, a teardrop from my face. ♥"

And this is why, I'll always love this silly nut; the same person who never fails to put that smile on my face, to pick me up when I'm down, to give me faith when I've lost it, & to give me reason to...

...hold on.

And perhaps, pessimists might say "he's leading you on."

But I'd say, "all you people, Have Faith." ♥♥♥

And that's exactly what I'm going to do.

"Have a little faith, in the two of us." - M2M